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That word is just so lame.  I feel funny just saying it.  But that’s what this entry is going to be:  A combination of incongruous things.

Work is still crazy busy and making me feel utterly defeated because I haven’t been able to swoop in and save the day by working ridiculous hours to knock things out and get caught up.  I’ve done the ridiculous hours, but the catching up part has been elusive.  I’ve got all of these balls up in the air, so it came as no surprise when a few of them started falling today.  Luckily, new boss seems to be aware (thanks in part to old boss, I’m certain) of the fact that I’ve been managing way more than a full workload for some time now.  And has put things in motion to, hopefully, get me some relief soon.

My trip to San Diego is coming up at the end of March (after Dr Honeydew’s visit, of course).  This will be the first real vacation I’ve had since 2000 when Badass and I went to Mexico.  That’s just sad.  I am finally eligible for some of the perks that come with having a pilot for a brother and have yet to be able to take advantage of them.  Finally, I grew a spine and said enough is enough.  I am taking ONE WHOLE WEEK off from work.  Deal with it.

The U.S. Mens’ Olympic hockey started today.  It was on during the day, so of course I missed it.  Sadder than that, I completely forgot it was happening today.  And the most disheartening of all….our beloved team, filled to the brim with professional NHL players, TIED.  With Latvia.  Who the fook is that?  And why didn’t we skate circles around them?!   Oh well…maybe we just got off to a slow start and will start kicking ass now.

I am completely annoyed by the fact that the V-day gift I sent to Dr Honeydew has still not been received.  The ridiculous part is that, his real  gift was a preorder item that wasn’t scheduled to ship out until 2/14.  And since I didn’t want him to not get ANYTHING from me on the actual day, I sent him a little something else, along with a card, so that he’d atleast know I had thought of him.  I didn’t get it mailed as early as I planned, but still.  He should’ve had it by today.  I checked the status of the preorder item and it is scheduled to be delivered tomorrow.  The item I mailed Monday is not even showing up in the damn USPS tracking yet.  WTF?!

I did my taxes last weekend.  That was a pleasant surprise.  I had only been in my house for 3 months in 2004, so I didn’t get much benefit from the mortgage interest deduction.  This year, however, I’m getting more than double back over last year’s refund.  Woohooo!  Now the problem is figuring out what to do with it.  Put it towards another car?  Buy that much wanted new furniture?  Put it towards my credit card bill?  Buy that new digital SLR I’ve been eyeballing?  Put it in savings for emergencies?  I know I’ll keep some of it as spending money for my trip to California.  But I’d really like to do something useful with the rest.  With it alone, I can’t completely pay for new furniture or buy another car or pay off my debt.  But it would be a decent chunk towards any of those.  Putting it towards my debt, while probably smart, wouldn’t be very satisfying.  I’ll probably just hold onto it for awhile until I can decide.  I just don’t want to end up spending little bits and pieces here and there on random crap. 

Pheh.  It’s late.  I should try to get some sleep I suppose.  There just aren’t enough hours in the day anymore.

Oh…and P.S.  Could my dog possibly stop shedding?!  Damn.  I just vaccuumed and there is already hair all over the place again.  Stupid weather needs to make up its mind.

Show me the money!

I had my performance review for 2005 today.  Because I am outsourced, I essentially have 2 managers.  One is my manager for my actual employer (female) and the other is my manager for the company I do work for exclusively (old boss male, new boss male).  So when SHE and I met today for my review, I was relived that she had gotten input from (old boss) HIM.  New boss really has minimal knowledge of what I do or, more importantly, what I did in 2005.  But he’s quickly learning.

Anyway, the review went great.  Old boss had given me glowing feedback and considerable praise.  My overall performance was rated as “Exceeded Expecatations,”  which is the highest selection.  Surely that should result in a nice raise.

Sadly, I have no idea how long I will have to wait to find out.  My company requires that the performance review take place, everyone signs off on it, and it must be submitted to HR along with the appropriate forms for a salary increase.  It is not until those forms have gone through all the various levels of approval that my company will give me any inclination of whether or not I will receive a raise, which would go into effect on March 1.

I hate waiting.  I don’t understand why they can’t say, “Daisy, we are submitting a request for an increase of X% and are awaiting approval.”  Or even acknowledge that an increase has been submitted and will go into effect March 1, pending approval.

Just tell me SOMETHING.  Because I hate sitting here assuming I will get a raise but not really knowing for sure.  Everyone is so damned afraid of a lawsuit these days.

You said I was great, spectacular even.  Don’t get me wrong, the praise is always welcome and appreciated, but in the end, it’s the dollar signs I want to see.

Hump Day

Thank goodness.  Finally on the downhill slide towards the weekend.  This week has been insanely busy at work.  I’m horribly behind from being off during the holidays and have little hope of catching up anytime soon since I feel like I have been in one meeting or another non-stop this week.  My support queue is overflowing.  I normally keep it around 20-30 tickets at most.  Currently I have 84.  Between the projects I am currently working and all the meetings, the tickets have just had to wait.

I can’t stand being behind on things.  It drives me batty.  So it looks like I’ll be doing the unthinkable this weekend…working.  One of my goals for this year was to learn to really be off when I’m not in the office.  To not let work run my life.  So if I have any shot of doing that, I need to go all out for the next week or so until I have regained some sense of control over my workload.  And then get organized again so I can stay ahead of the game.  Or atleast not get left behind. 

Now I’ve got this ridiculously demanding customer who, no matter how many times I ask for advanced notice, insists on throwing things at me at the last minute.  She asked me ONE day in advance to attend their pilot group (so they can start using one of our systems) and walk them through the process.  This includes, but is not limited to, training for them, preparing training for their organization prior to rollout, establishing roles and setting the timeline and expecatations for their employees.  Um….sure.  I can cancel the FIVE other meetings I have the next day and show up to meet with your group, who I have no prior experience with, and tell you how to be successful in three hours.

We talked to them back in December about this and gave them the option of using our example rollout documents and doing it themselves or us scoping and managing the project for them.  Or a combination of the two where they could bring us in, as needed, on an hourly basis for consulting.  We heard nothing back from them until a few days ago, when I received her request for me to attend the pilot group meeting (which they had already scheduled) the next day.

I told her (again) we would be happy to help, but that we need more notice.  We do have other customers and committments and projects, you know.  I tell her I have a fairly open schedule next week so far and to feel free to schedule something on my calendar.  So what does she do??

Today, she calls my (new) boss and tells him that I just can’t seem to make time for her.  Luckily, new boss and I had already discussed the situation (as she has been previously identified as a very “needy” and “demanding” customer).  She told him she needed me to move forward with their project and was having a hard time getting time with me.  To which my boss replied, “You and everybody else.  She is incredibly busy right now and is booked solid this week.” He also told her that he believed I had offered several options for meeting next week (because I was smart enough to copy him on that email so he’d know what was going on).  Yay new boss!

After a lengthy discussion with old and new boss about this, new boss is supposed to have called her this evening and discussed it with her.  Basically, we are not going to do the project the way they are trying to make us do it.  Poor to no planning, thrown together, and unorganized.  It leaves the door wide open for failure and we don’t operate that way.  He is going to suggest them “hiring” me out at my consulting rate for a few days to spend with them assessing needs, etc, and plotting out a plan for implementation. 

*singing*  I need $50 dollars to make you holler.  I get paid to do the wild thing. 

I have a dirty mind.

I just went down to our pitiful excuse of a cafeteria to find something for lunch.  And was privy to this conversation:

Cafeteria Manager:  Hi there.  Happy New Year.

Female customer:  Thanks, you too.  Were you glad to have this all shut down last week?

Cafeteria Manager:  You bet I was.  It’s the only way I can ever manage to get off.

I was able to avoid making any comment or audibly laughing, but I was giggling on the inside.  What am I, twelve?!?! 

Today is my first full day back in the office and I seriously do not want to be here.  I have to keep telling myself, “No, SWF, you can NOT light up in here.”  I’ve reached for my purse atleast twice now to grab a smoke.  I think I’d be much more efficient if they’d invent a smoking office.  Instead, I’m sitting here thinking about when I can manage to squeeze in a smoke break instead of working.

What was that resolution I made about being more proactive or something?  Hmmm….guess I better get back to it.

Resolutions in 2006

I don’t think I’ve ever really made any New Year’s resolutions before.  So why not try something different and actually decide on a few goals for this year?  Here we go…

  1. Reach my goal weight.  I’ve wavered on my new beginning with WW the past few weeks.  So starting now, it’s back on plan and making a genuine effort to learn to eat properly again.  It’s not a diet, it’s a LIFESTYLE CHANGE!  That’s the only way I’ll lose it and keep it off.  And I have every intention of doing just that.
  2. Money matters.  If I don’t have it, don’t spend it.  Yes, that means put the damn credit card away.  I’ve been caught in a viscious cycle of sending every spare dime to my debt, but then I’m always broke so I use the card.  Which means, I’m getting nowhere.  So this week, I will re-create a NEW budget that I can honestly live within while still making substantial payments towards my debt.
  3. Stop procrastinating so much at work.  If I would start being a little more proactive, I should be able to put an end to the long hours atleast some of the time. 
  4. Stop sleeping on the damn couch.  I think that is one of the key causes of my sleep issues. 
  5. Stop being such a wimp and make a genuine effort to start dating again.  And by dating, I do not mean the “friends with benefits” situations I’ve gotten into in the past year or so.

Ok.  I think that’s plenty.  And realistic.  Good luck to everyone else on theirs.  Let’s have a kickass year!

This week

The past few weeks have been crazy busy at work.  And, even though a lot of people have already taken off for the holidays, this week doesn’t look to be any calmer.  Atleast, by mid-week, most everyone else will be gone.  So in their absence, with the peace and quiet, maybe I can actually get some work done.

Monday:  Conference call with India at 6am (so not looking forward to being up in 4 hours).  Then I have to spend 2 hours training someone to support a project we are going live with in January.  Then the rest of the day playing catchup on support tickets and email that I haven’t touched in almost a week.  Go brave one of the malls in an attempt to finish my Christmas shopping.  Come home and watch the game. 

Tuesday:  All day work session with my design team, rewriting test cases for our gigantimum upgrade next year.  Atleast we’ll get a free breakfast and lunch out of it.

Wednesday:  My birthday.  Yay.  Going to try to duck out of the office early and then meet up with friends to watch the Stars game and have adult beverages. 

Thursday:  Try not to be too hungover so I can be at work before noon.  Run some test batches to make sure the process we’re using for that January project will work the way I think it will.  Continue unloading my inbox (it’s really frighteningly out of control right now) and work more support tickets.  Come home and do laundry and clean house in prep for going out of town.

Friday:  Hopefully I can get away with working from home.  And finish laundry and cleaning.  Pack clothes and stuff.  Get all the presents wrapped and loaded into the car.  Give Mazzy a bath.  Clean car.  Check all the fluids and stuff in the car.  Make sure I have bottles of all those various fluids to take on the road with me (my car is an old POS and I am dreading the 5+ hour drive…something always seems to go wrong).  Air up my tires.   Watch the game.

Saturday:  Get up early (ugh) and drive for 5-8 hours (depending on my car and how many potty breaks Mazzy and I need).  Get to parents’ house.  Unload car.  Change into comfy pajamas (aka fat people pj’s) and hope super hot guy that I used to date way back when doesn’t decide to stop by my parents’ house for a visit again.

So if I can just make it through Monday and Tuesday, the rest shouldn’t be too bad.  Speaking of, I need to get my ass to sleep!  I’ve got multiple alarms set to wake me up at the crack of dawn so I can be in the office before 6.  I imagine this is what I will feel like for most of the day:

(photo from http://cuteoverload.com)

Gonna be a looong day

“Nothing cures insomnia like the realization that it’s time to get up.” 
~Author Unknown

Oh sure…NOW I’m sleepy.  I have to be up in an hour and a half so I can go sit in a team offsite for the next 2 days.  I tried to go to bed at a reasonable hour.  I really did.  And yet, somehow, it is almost 5am and I’m still awake. 

My eyes are rolling back in my head and I could so be asleep in about 5 seconds, but now I’m past the point of that being an option.  I mean, I could take a nap for an hour, but I don’t trust myself to actually even hear my alarm, much less wake up.  So now I have to keep myself occupied so I won’t crash between now and when I need to leave.  I’ve played every lame ass computer game I can find.  Watched all kinds of goofy videos online. 

By the way…if you haven’t seen this computer kareoke video, take a look.  I laughed so hard.  To the point of coughing uncontrollably with tears running down my face.  Then again, I’m probably a little delirious, so if you aren’t amused, it’s not my fault.

Ugh.  Tomorrow I’m taking some Tylenol PM at, oh, say…8pm?

A wasted day

I went to bed Friday night early…for me.  Around 1am.  In my actual bed for a change.  And then proceeded to sleep until, and I’m embarrassed to say this, 3pm.  That was so not part of my Saturday plan.  So instead of getting dressed and getting out and running the errands I needed to, I did some minor cleaning around the house, watched some hockey, and goofed around online.

Now, it is almost 4am and I’m wide awake.  Brilliant.  And tomorrow, well, today, I absolutely have to get up and get stuff done.  Because the company that I work for decided, for some unknown and unimaginable reason, that we should have our Holiday Dinner today.  At 4:30pm.  Who the hell eats DINNER at 4:30????  Right in the middle of the damn day.  I’m so irritated about that.  I don’t want to go as it is, but for them to schedule it at such a dumbfuckingtime, when I have a million (ok, a dozen atleast) other things I need to be doing.  I’d skip it, but apparently that wouldn’t look good. 

I read this article today and was so tempted to email it to every boss and boss’s boss I could think of.  Particular this little nugget:

“Just 19 percent of respondents found company bashes enjoyable and 81 percent found them a chore. “One question I’m always asked is whether people have to go at all. People don’t feel comfortable and they’d just as soon stay home,” said Pamela Bedour, founder of The Protocol School of Ontario.”

It wouldn’t be so bad if I actually knew some of these people.  Because my job is outsourced, the only people I know that actually work for the same company as me are the ones that work at the same site as me.  Everyone else is a total stranger.  And that’s who I’ll be dining with tomorrow for dinner….late lunch…linner?

Anyway, I figure I need to be up and moving by 9am so that I have plenty of time to finish cleaning, go pick up my boss’s farewell gift for Tuesday, return something at Target, do a little Christmas shopping, get back home, shower, dress, and head to V’s house.  She’s going to be my date.  I’m tired of flying solo to these things and I don’t know any single and cute (and straight) men that could accompany me.  Everyone else gets to invite a guest (aka spouse), so why should I be denied that option simply because I am significant-other-challenged?

Dallas World Aquarium

A little bus picked us up from the office today and drove us to the aquarium.  Yes, go ahead and get all of your “you ride the short bus” jokes out of the way.

We got there around 11am and were taken to one of the event rooms and served an incredibly good lunch.  No, we did not have sushi.  The food was excellent though.  I had no idea their catering was so fantastic. 

After lunch, we were allowed an hour and a half to roam the aquarium before we had to be back in the room for our “activity.”  I had not been to this place since almost 6 years ago.  Calling it an “aqaurium is really misleading because, while it does have quite a few of those, it also has a big rainforest type place with all kinds of other animals.  The first time I went, I thought it was nice, but nothing fancy.  And certainly not worth the cost of admission to go again. 

Since that time, they have apparently made quite a few changes and additions.  And the hour and a half to explore was nowhere near enough time, IMO.  I had gone in armed with both my digital and 35mm cameras.  I made it a point this morning to clean my lenses, make sure I had plenty of film, grabbed my polarizing filter to help with the glass glare, and put fresh batteries in the flash.  What I failed to do was realize that the actual camera battery in the 35mm had not been changed in some time.  I got there, loaded it up with film, threw it and my digital on my shoulders and went off to take buttloads of pictures. 

But…you guessed it.  Shortly after turning the 35mm on, the battery died.  And people were making fun of me for bringing TWO cameras.  Now I don’t look so silly, do I?  😛

My little midrange digital still manages to impress me (or I impress myself sometimes.  Little bit of both, perhaps).   It was my step up camera from the last one.  The plan was to use it for a year or two and then step up again to a full digital SLR.  I’m itching to get one, but have to save up the money first (not to mention pay off some debts). 

Anyway, back to the zoo/rainforest/aqaurium place.    I had to rush my way through to get back to our department thing so didn’t really get to spend as much time in each area as I wanted.  They had the obvious:  fish and sharks other sea creatures.  But they also had birds and snakes and flamingos and storks and jaguars and spiders and monkeys…It was a really cool place and I plan to go again soon.

Back at our department thing, I ended up winning one round of the trivia ($25 Visa card) and getting second place in the “Guess How Many POUNDS of Candy Garfield* Has Distributed Over the Last 3 Years” contest.  I guessed 1200.  The correct answer was 1500 I think.  Either way, another $25 Visa for me.  YAY!

*Garfield is a coworker who has a little table outside of his office, constantly filled with all kinds of yummy treats.

Week #5 Weigh In

Forgot to post it last night.

Last week’s weight:  190
This week’s weight:  189

Frankly, I am overjoyed by this.  I fully expected to have a gain this week.  All last week, when I was sick, I was snacking constantly because it helped scratch my throat.  And the anitibiotics I was on made me nauseous, so I kept eating crackers and soup (and occasionally a few bites of ice cream) to help settle my stomach.  I didn’t journal my food at all, but tried to be aware of my points…even though I know I went over a few days.  So after all that, to still lose a pound, GO ME!  :)

We have an HR end-of-year function this afternoon, but no meal this year.  Just snacks.  At some lame game place.  Sorry, I’m being negative, but to celebrate our year, I want to be entertained.  Not go bowling or play laser tag.

Next week is our department end-of-year celebration.  We’re going to spend the day at the Dallas World Aquarium and have a catered lunch.  I’m excited for that one.  It will be nice to have a calm, relaxing day on the boss’s dollar. 

I’m going to the Stars game tonight, so yay for that.  And to a season ticket holder event in the morning to pick up my free jersey (double yay) and meet the players and get autographs and such (triple yay), which means I will get to see my Darling Mikey again (I just blacked out). 

Thanks for the laugh, Red!

Today was an odd mix. 

It was a good day because my boss gave me 2 lower level tickets to a Stars game in March.  And thanked me for doing such a great job this year.  Said I really took on the challenge of my new role and ran with it.

It was a bad day because my boss told us he has accepted another position in the department, effective January 1.  And one of my coworkers will be taking over as manager of our team.
It was a good day because, when I got home tonight, I had a FedEx package from Red.  Early birthday present?  What is this?  When I opened it and saw what it was, I laughed so hard I cried.  I guess my tantrum-like stomping of my light up heels and insistence on what I was NOT supposed to be at the Halloween party made a lasting impression.

It was a (very cool) plaque from Target.  With the following design on it. 


Why am I so tired?

I’m eating better, drinking more water, trying to be more active (compared to my “normal” routine atleast).  But I still can’t make myself go to sleep at a reasonable hour.  And every day, when I get home from work, all I want to do is sleep.  Somehow I’ve managed to not to nap today, despite getting 6 hours of sleep last night. 

Luckily, I have no early meetings tomorrow.  So there should be no paranoia about oversleeping and being late.  And since I’m dead tired right now, here’s hoping I can get myself to sleep by 11pm or so.  The problem is, around 9:30 or 10, I catch my 2nd wind.  And then it’s the wee hours of the morning before I finally lay down.  I need discipline in my life and seeing as I’m the only one here (I seriously doubt my dog is going to start closing my laptop, turning off the tv, and sending me to my room), I should try to set some guidelines for myself.  This is becoming too big of an issue.

A lot going on at work this week.  And then the show and V’s party this weekend.  I’m excited for both, and yet I find myself wanting to do nothing but stay home and be lazy.  I’ve been in anti-social mode lately…by the time the work week is done, I just want to be left alone.  This past weekend, I worked from home on Friday and didn’t leave the house again until Monday morning.  I wouldn’t have left then if I didn’t have meetings at work to attend.  I’m counting the days until the long Thanksgiving weekend. 

Life shouldn’t be this way…muddling through work and living for the weekends and holidays and non-existent vacations.  Then spending your time off catching up on all the housework and errands and stuff that you don’t have time to do during the week. 

I am woman.  Hear me bitch. 

Comments from old blog:
Daisy – Nov 14, 05:  Here I am!! Rough week. And already time to start a new one. Ugh.

Nilla – Nov 13, 05:  GIRL!! Where did you go?!

Saundra – Nov 13, 05:  Dude, I’ve been feeling the same way lately… I am trying to MAKE myself exercise more… cause that usually helps… the problem is finding the energy to do that…All I want to do is sit on the couch and veg… UGH!

Nilla – Nov 09, 05:  Came back to leave another comment:   Just making you go, geeeee, I wanna go! I discovered that two people in a double occupancy room is only $679. Talk about cheaper. Well, I LIKE the floor :)…. anyway, if you poke around, you’ll see that all the off-boat excursions cost extra and you have to pick them all before you get on board. Geez. Have you ever been on a cruise? I haven’t. My sister, mom, and friend have and told me about it. The 24 hour buffet sounds GREAT. Yay! Salad with a side of PB&J at 2am!!

Nilla – Nov 09, 05:  Weehee! Mexico sounds uber tasty. Cutesie Mexico boys showing off muscles.

Of course, my mother sounded really pissed off that I decided to go on the SinShip as opposed to the Trip To Holy Land To Pray And Stuff.

Uck, though…. it would be about $1000 (a single room). Leave from San Diego, go to Acapulco and up the coast back to SD for a total of eight days. I picked the week of February 20, which is my wedding anniversary. Kinda like, okay, I don’t feel like being sad— lookit me havin’ a good time without you, fucker!!

P.S. My sister and everyone I know tell me to bring a friend or I’ll die of boredom. Or something.

Laura – Nov 09, 05:  I feel ya!! That’s why I didn’t show up to the Halloween party. I was just so tired & wiped out & anti-social that I just wanted to lie around and do NOTHING.

I agree that lack of sugar especially causes this. I have to start over in that…. cutting way back on sugar and caffeine and stuff… UGH. But soon we’ll have more energy and we’ll want to go out and show off our hot selves!! 😉

Nilla – Nov 09, 05:  Lack of carbohydrates, sugar, and caffiene (if you cut that out). It’ll make you really tired until your body gets used to the new fuel. Have you ever changed the dog’s dog food? Well, they usually get mopey, tired, and of course, the runs. You’ll be fine, soon. Hard as it sounds, don’t nap! That’ll make it worse, plus throw of your cicadian rhythm of the sleep cycle.

Will work for food

Earlier this week, one of my bosses sent out an email to the managers and head of our department about the big project proposal we’ve been working on.  And made it a point to single me out as the person who put it together….and that it can be used as the foundation of a new service/product for us.  Lots of praise basically.   

It was nice to get the public pat on the back.  I’m saving all these things for future reference.  I’ve gotten quite a few of them since starting my new position at the beginning of the year.  Should come in handy when it comes time for my review.  I like to think so atleast.

So anyway, today, my other boss (I have 2 basically) sends me an email thanking me for my efforts.  And tells me to go have dinner with a friend and expense it as a reward.  Cool. 

I’m trying to decide where I’d like to go.  Think I’ll invite T, which means I probably won’t do it this weekend.  He’s supposed to be babysitting his niece as a favor so his brother and sister-in-law can celebrate their anniversary.