I believe I’ve mentioned before that I am addicted to facebook. In recent months, a number of old high school friends have joined and I am having a blast reconnecting with some of them. I don’t remember who started it, but there is now an abundance of our old school days photos being uploaded there and it’s great to reminisce.
In a lot of ways, I miss who I was back then. I miss my independent spirit. I miss my devil-may-care attitude. I miss the feeling of being totally, head-over-heels for someone. I miss trusting people and having close friends that I could talk to about anything. I miss being so open and unguarded. And I totally miss that body!! What the hell happened to that girl?! I know she’s buried in here somewhere, under many layers of fat and abuse and self-doubt that have accumulated over the past 15 years.
I’m not one to make New Years’ resolutions, but this year, I’d like to try and find that girl again, dust her off, and let her shine. Even just a little bit.