This past week and a half has been utter hell. Several times I caught myself wanting to come blog about some things, but decided to wait until some of the hurt and anger wore off. I’ve buried most of it, but still get beyond pissed thinking about it. Between all of that, another week of wicked insomnia, and a horribly tedious week at work, I’ve decided to just bite my tongue. Instead, I’m going to look forward to the weekend!
I’m heading out to my brother Dilbert’s house at the lake tomorrow morning and planning to stay through Sunday. I invited a few friends, with Dilbert’s permission of course, but it was so last minute that everyone had already made plans. My friend, V, is planning to come out tomorrow night and stay until Saturday. My parents are driving up. So it should be good times. I’m looking forward to catching up with V, lounging by the pool, playing a little poker, and drinking adult beverages (in moderation however…I did say my parents would be there).
So here’s wishing you all (in my mind I like to pretend there’s more than 2 or 3 people who read this) a safe and happy 4th of July! Enjoy the time off, whatever your plans are!
How sad. I’m not ready to go back to work. It’s been so nice being lazy. And I don’t even feel guilty about it. Other than a few small projects around the house, I have done absolutely nothing the past 3 days. In fact, I didn’t even leave the house except for once last night to buy smokes and pick up some Taco Bueno. I’m not a hermit, really. I’m just conserving gas. 😛
I talked to T earlier tonight. I guess we really have been crossing signals or something. I don’t call him because I don’t want to be annoying. Plus I know he’s either working or in class all day and night. He doesn’t call because I don’t call so he thinks I don’t want to talk to him. He had fun hanging out with my friends but thinks it doesn’t matter if he is there or not because I am having fun with my friends either way. And that I see them all the time, but him, not so much. There was a month or so there where we saw each other almost every week. And I didn’t know what to make of it.
I told him you are welcome to come out with us anytime. I would love to see you more often. But you told me, almost a year ago, you had to focus on work and school and did not have time for a girlfriend. I’m trying to respect that. I like spending time with you. With or without my friends. All you have to do is ask. I’m not a freaking mind reader, although some of my old friends were convinced I was psychic. Or maybe they meant psycho. Anyway. So he said he did not remember saying he didn’t have time for a girlfriend. Whatever. Maybe he said it because, at the time, we barely knew each other and he wasn’t sure who he was dealing with. I’m the type of person that, you tell me something like that, I’m not going to argue with you or try to change your mind.
So he tells me I can call him anytime. If he is busy, he will call back when he can. I say likewise. And invited him to dinner this weekend. He says he doesn’t think he has any plans and would like that. The not thinking he has plans thing…um…does that mean he’s waiting to see if a better offer comes along? Or am I being anal?
Ugh. When did dating become so complicated?