Is it better to know or not know?
In this case, I guess it is better to know so I can just stop it and move on. I have had a massive crush on my friend, Curly, for years. Early in our friendship, he made a comment about never dating a smoker, so I immediatey wrote off any chance of anything ever growing out of that friendship. But it didn’t keep me from thinking he was an amazing guy, who shared a lot of the same values as me. And maybe because he’s one of the few, seemingly decent, single guys I know, I fixated on him. I absolutely adore him. To the point that, tonight, at a bar to see one of his friends play in a cover band, a friend of mine decided to explore the topic with him.
Apparently we get along and have a lot in common, but it’s stricly platonic. It stings a little, but at least I can finally just let it go.