So here is the question I pose to you:
Say you’ve been friends with this guy for several years and have always liked and respected him. Not to mention he cracks you up. He helped you move and paint your house…And NOW, years later, you find yourself with a serious crush on him. WTF do you do?!
The thing is, I don’t see this person very often, and much less often than in previous years. I always kind of thought he was cute, but just thought he was too much older and set in his ways for me. But now, 4-years later, the age gap doesn’t seem as big. And his dry sense of humor is like spanish fly to me. And hell, I’ve probably become more of a homebody than he is in that time.
I’ve confessed to only a very small handful of people and more than half of them has replied, “But HE has always had a crush on you!!!” Honestly, I think they are just saying that to give me some guts to explore this possibility. Plus, I was almost 60 lbs lighter then. While I’ve joined a gym in an effort to correct that, I haven’t been going anything remotely like “regularly.”
Add to that the fact that I had one of my nervous breakdown crying fits with him back when I was in the deepest throes of my depression. And I boohooed to him over Mazzy. Oh, and there’s the time I blurted out, while drinking, about the time he and XYZ got it on. Did I mention that he was sitting right beside me at the time and apparently that wasn’t common knowledge?
I am so clueless. And doomed to remain single at this rate.